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BeautifulEmpty (original poster member #38763) posted at 6:40 PM on Monday, August 26th, 2013
I do not dream much that I know of. I have phases but its not my general thing.
Recently, I've had three dreams about WS and OW. I just woke up from one and it leaves me so sad and takes me back to some places I don't want to go. I mean, the feelings these remind me of are bad and sick enough, I feel hopeless with us and like I need to just divorce instead of holding my breath forever.
But they are just dreams...unfortunately based in solid, awful reality.
I'm a bit over a year out and these just started. When WS and I were in the midst of his debacle, I was always crying myself to sleep in absolute agony and he would be snoring away next to me. OW delighted in reiterating that for me and then calling me an idiot.
I'm not really asking any questions...just talking. I'm surprised after all these years that my eyes are even capable of crying still.
[This message edited by BeautifulEmpty at 12:41 PM, August 26th (Monday)]
Me: 44 BS
Him: 40 FWS
Ow: 47 head case, no obs
5 DD's: 23, 20, 19, 17, 12
Last D-day: August 2012 with lots of very blurry lines.
LosferWords ( member #30369) posted at 7:08 PM on Monday, August 26th, 2013
Lonelygirl10 ( member #39850) posted at 7:57 PM on Monday, August 26th, 2013
I've had some dreams lately too. There's two versions of myself, and I can see WS having sex with me and then having sex with OW. One version of me is screaming at myself to stop, but the other version of me just goes on having sex with him. I woke up once with my pillow wet from crying in my sleep.
(((((hugs)))))
BeautifulEmpty (original poster member #38763) posted at 8:04 PM on Monday, August 26th, 2013
(((LonelyGirl)))
I feel you :/
Me: 44 BS
Him: 40 FWS
Ow: 47 head case, no obs
5 DD's: 23, 20, 19, 17, 12
Last D-day: August 2012 with lots of very blurry lines.
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