Please sweetie get thee to a doctor and call a crisis hotline if you feel any worse. I did attempt suicide for similar reasons as yours. I caught my WH breaking NC for the 3rd time saying he missed his *insert whores nickname here*
I have 2 kids and even their little precious hearts didn't stop me. I was THAT far gone.
Ask your WH to leave and have a girlfriend or someone you know stay with you until you can collect your thoughts and emotions.
[This message edited by crazyblindsided at 2:06 PM, August 26th (Monday)]