Has it really been a year sense I found out for the second time my husband was "planning" on cheating with me, because i was frigid.
Things are alright. I don't trigger much, I still check his email and things pretty regularly.
To be honest I don't really feel much. I am kind of stuck in the plain of lethal flatness. I get annoyed with him him and he has been snappish at me lately, which of course leads me to check his email more.
He still watches porn, still amateur but at least not at the sites where he can chat wtih the girls and tell them what turns him on.
He is affectionate, but I am not feeling it yet. I have concern for him, but I don't know. it is all blah. So yeah not good not bad...just meh.
And no i don't really know what i want to do to change it.
