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Topic: Feeling down today

simplydevastated
♀ 25001
Member # 25001

Posted: 11:19 AM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013

I just feel down and I don't know how else to explain it. I have too many bad thoughts floating around in my head today that are not usually there. I feel alone and invisible. I'm trying to focus on me and the kids but today I feel almost suffocated by him. He's completely checked out of the marriage and back on his sites as of last week.

I just don't want to be here or anywhere right now. Some days are great where I can push it all out and just have a fabulous day. Unfortunately, today isn't one of them.

Me - BS, 40 (I'm not old...I'm vintage)
Two Wonderful children - DS11, DD8
Getting my ducks in a row for divorce... finally (4+ D-Days too many - listed in profile.)

Posts: 6121 | Registered: Jul 2009 | From: In the darkest depths of hell!

MissMovingOn
♀ 30720
Member # 30720

Posted: 11:21 AM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013

(((sd))) I've been there. I'm sorry you have to feel this way today.

Me: BS, 34
Him: (SA/NPD)WH, 31
Multiple ddays since 2010 (Latest January 15th 2013) - not counting anymore!
FINAL FINAL DDay - August 8, 2014. I AM DONE!

Posts: 420 | Registered: Jan 2011 | From: West Coast Canada

StillStanding1
♀ 40144
Member # 40144

Posted: 11:31 AM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013

(((simplydevastated)))

I'm so sorry... This rollercoaster ride we are all on just SUCKS.

I don't have any profound words of wisdom. Just want you to know you are not alone.

Try to do some little thing that makes you happy or feel good today. Just feeling the sunshine on your face for a bit can help... I don't know...

Hang in there. You are strong!

Me: BS49+ 😝, Him: WH 51
M 23 yrs - DD21 DS19 DS16
LTA = 2+ yrs, Dday = 2/10/13, S for 1 year, now Reconciling

Posts: 1468 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: MidWest

krazy8516
♀ 40076
Member # 40076

Posted: 11:45 AM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013

Must be something about this week. It seems like a lot of people are feeling this way lately.

me: BW, 30
him: WH, 25
us: edging closer to R every day

married 2y, together 2.5y
1 beautiful daughter, 23m

"Someday soon, I'm going to put my life together; Win or lose, I'm starting over again."

Posts: 368 | Registered: Jul 2013 | From: Texas

Jennifer99
♀ 39551
Member # 39551

Posted: 12:00 PM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013

Hugs! I have days like that. Be sure you aren't beating yourself up for it, it just prolongs the feeling.

Posts: 557 | Registered: Jun 2013

MovingUpward
♂ 14866
Member # 14866

Posted: 12:07 PM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013

Sending some positive SI mojo your way

Posts: 54405 | Registered: Jun 2007

crazyblindsided
♀ 35215
Member # 35215

Posted: 12:07 PM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013

(((simplydevastated)))

I hate the down days, they feel sometimes impossible to get through.

May your days ahead be brighter!

BS/FWS (me):43 Madhatter
WS/BS:46 Serial Cheater
Together 20 years, Married 15
DD(13) DS(10)
DDay(s) Too many to count
False R 7/11/14 Same OW2
"Never seek validation from those who are unworthy."

Posts: 4022 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: California

simplydevastated
♀ 25001
Member # 25001

Posted: 2:37 PM, August 28th (Wednesday), 2013

Thank you for all the hugs, mojo, and advice.

The funny thing...I'm always on here telling people not to let what their WS spouse define them, to focus on themselves and be the best person they can be. I guess I need to start taking my own advice

I took the kids to the mall for some retail therapy and bought myself a new maxi skirt. My son bought a shirt for back to school with what was left of a gift card and my daughter bought herself some lotion from Bath and Body Works. We had a nice afternoon until, what looked like, some creepy guy following us. Then we went into one of my favorite stores, DSW and it all just went sparkly and while I was looking at shoes

Me - BS, 40 (I'm not old...I'm vintage)
Two Wonderful children - DS11, DD8
Getting my ducks in a row for divorce... finally (4+ D-Days too many - listed in profile.)

Posts: 6121 | Registered: Jul 2009 | From: In the darkest depths of hell!

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