Anyone experienced anything like this?
There were lots of things/time frames that are a blur. I know what happened, but there's no way I can pin point even a general time frame to attach it to.
It has gotten better over the years, but there are still times I can't place from back then. Now it just old age, not trauma that causes it...
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It's been 2 1/2 yr. since Dday. Xwf left right away and that was that. We had lived together for 7 years engaged. We never really talked about it afterwards and life changed instantly the way I knew it and he was gone that day. Very traumatic.
Hate the loss of memory. It does get better but is scary at first. Take good care of yourself, drink enough fluids, eat healthy, eat berries, nuts, etc. to help your brain cope and heal. Dehydration causes and aggravates memory loss and other health problems.
[This message edited by Thinkingtoomuch at 9:57 PM, August 28th (Wednesday)]
Now I lose days/weeks/months it seems. Sad and scary ;(
I met my atty. in local deli one day, there was just me, him and the young cashier. He asked: "So, did you start the walking regimen?" I said what? Huh? He said when we talked 2 days ago you told me you were going to start walking again.
I was dumbfounded. Had no recollection of the conversation and I couldn't even hide my confusion. He told me we talked for five minutes! I have NO memory of that, none. I was so embarrassed in front of the clerk and just said that's not good.
I'm sure they both thought I must have been shit faced! I was driving during this conversation and had stopped to see if he needed a ride. We talked for 5 minutes!
I asked him if I was drunk??? I know I couldn't have been because I was driving! If I drink I have 2, only 2 ever! The small town we live in will snatch your license and you'll cry when you get the bill.
I told him last week that I talked to the doc about that and asked again if I was drunk. He said we talked for FIVE MINUTES! I said that I know if I was that drunk he would have taken the keys away from me and/or reported a dangerous driver immediately. He looked at me stunned because he knows that as well as I do. He would have stopped me.
I've lost days, hours, minutes, seconds. Precious time that I'll never get back and I don't know why it happens. It's frightening!
But sometimes I guess it's a good thing?? I think my mind is protecting itself. Other times? It's just roll on the floor holding your belly laughing at the craziness of it.
Every date of every event of pain is etched into my brain. This is not me I do not remember dates. I have to think about my sons birthdays!
I do in home decorating consults. If the customer comes into the store I have now clue who they are. Over and over, since I recognize this I am trying to make a conscious effort to remember and even that has not helped.
Saying out loud,"what am I doing?" not good at work.
Feel like I am living under water.
dday October 21,2012
dday December 20, 2013
I attempted R, he was a lie
I started a journal so I can look back and see how I felt certain days. Other wise, I look at last year's calendar and hardly remember the Holidays at all.
Very embarassing. And I have to make up an excuse or just deflect the truth in our conversation.
I read everything I can get my hands on about the subject of improving brain or memory function, and focus on the positive articles that state you CAN get your memory back.
I read on SI a long while ago how others were having memory problems, and that it had happened to me. The memory loss felt odd and was a little obscure at first til I realized it was happening to me more than I thought. That's one of the reasons I knew I had something like PTSD.
It's been hard since I lost all my older coworker peers during my job "squeeze" and now have much younger coworkers. Their brains are more resilient to stressors. I know it affects everyone, but as we get older the brain and body do change.
I am glad this subject has come up again.
Hope springs eternal.
Much to my surprise, I remember every date, from the first go around. My first inkling to this second ordeal was on the 3rd of August, and dday was August 16th. All of the days in between, I can't tell you one specific thing from any given day!
It makes me so mad! The first time my daughter was 6 months old when he left, and there are things that I don't remember that are such big mile stones for little ones. I don't remember when she started crawling or walking, or anything.
I have had several people get mad at me when I tell them, "I don't remember." It may have happened a week ago, or 10 minutes ago, and I may or may not remember it.
It's as if your a zombie, walking through the motions.
I had a wreck a few months after WH left the first time, and honest to God, I don't know why, or how it happened. I remember "waking up", and I had hit someone. Luckily it was a very small rearend wreck, but I was scared to drive for a while after that.
It's tiring going through the motions, but not feeling like your truly living a life.
Or...if you think you're already old....