Yesterday I started to realize the extent of collateral damage done to my family and circle of friends.
The damage starts with my children. My DS18 is filled with rage and hardly speaks to my fww or me. He does not know of the A but time used to heal the M was time taken away from him during his teenage years. He is now in IC and on medication.
My FIL used to be like a father to me, he will no longer speak to me because I filed for divorce from his darling innocent daughter. He also does not know about the A. I have respected his wishes and we no longer speak. My MIL is also in the "hates me" camp. She may know of the A, I am not sure. When I filed for D she offered to pay for a shark lawyer so my fww could take me for everything (she cheated on FIL, they D'd).
My F of 25 years ex-communicated me because I informed a BW that she was being cheated on by her H. The H was also a very long term friend of his.
For performance reasons I was demoted from my mgmt position and sent back to the engineering group. I also received a less than spectacular review which meant no raises or bonuses for at least a year.
Large amounts of money have been spent on doctors, IC, medication, etc.
I am now on AD meds, high BP meds and I have zero tolerance for just about anything.
The list goes on and on but I will stop for now. Thanks for listening.