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sodamnlost (original poster member #37190) posted at 3:04 PM on Friday, August 30th, 2013
This post has some "religious" tones - just explaining where I am - I hope it's ok.
I am getting my first not easily hid tattoo today!! I have two now but both are hidden by clothes. This on is going on my left inner forearm. Super excited!!
All my life I have struggled with the word surrender. I have kept my heart hidden. That changed when I met WH and changed even deeper when I got saved. I learned to surrender and learned to love it. During his affair - I stopped surrendering - to him and to God. My inner tiger became the dominant force - protecting my wounded heart.
Over the last year I have struggled so hard to surrender to anything. That changed recently. I finally realized surrender is good but only to those that can actually handle it when a tiger surrenders. That's a huge responsibility and a huge gift - to have a tiger surrender. As of right now, in my life, God is the only one that can handle that.
Long story sorry. My tat is of a tiger with the word surrender as it's shadow. It's like turning a corner for me. I finally realize just how valuable I am and NOBODY gets that inner me unless they can handle it. The tiger WILL protect my surrender. One day - I will surrender to love again but not to anyone who can't handle it - not even WH as he is right now. Maybe it will be WH again, maybe someone new or maybe it will stay just me. Whatever that outcome - no more giving the tamed tiger to assholes who can't handle it.
It's a good day to really begin to move foreward 
Me - BS original Dday 10-2012, separated June 2014, divorce Fall 2016
Grief, loss and pain taunt her - "you will never be the same." Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, she rises and spreads her new wings as she brushes off the ashes an
Amazonia ( member #32810) posted at 3:47 PM on Friday, August 30th, 2013
please post pics when it's done - sounds beautiful!!!
"You yourself deserve your love and affection as much as anybody in the universe." -Buddha
"Let's face it, life is a crap shoot." -Sad in AZ
sodamnlost (original poster member #37190) posted at 2:20 AM on Saturday, August 31st, 2013
It's done and I *LOVE* it!!! How do I post a picture?!?
Me - BS original Dday 10-2012, separated June 2014, divorce Fall 2016
Grief, loss and pain taunt her - "you will never be the same." Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, she rises and spreads her new wings as she brushes off the ashes an
Jrazz ( member #31349) posted at 2:30 AM on Saturday, August 31st, 2013
Sounds awesome!
Here's how to post a picture:
PICTURES: In order to display an image within your post, the image must be hosted on a web server. There are several free hosting services for your images. Here are acouple that you can use: picturaltrail.com – photobucket.com
Once you have your image uploaded or you have found a picture on the internet you want to embed in your post, you can then post your image by right-clicking on your image and selecting "Properties", copying that Address (URL) and then pasting it with the [ img ] at the beginning and [ /img ] at the end of the URL tags.
Example: 
ETA - I added spaces around the "img" and "/img" in the brackets because it was trying to use the html to post a picture! Take the spaces out to post.
[This message edited by Jrazz at 8:32 PM, August 30th (Friday)]
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." - Deeply Scared's mom
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