I have not been on SI for a very, very long time. Yet tonight I came and tonight I saw your plea.
I call it a plea because it is, not to me, or maybe it is, but to him...See me, hear me, understand me.
I reconciled. Some days that was a great decision, but I will not lie to you, some days I think I was a fool. In my life, he loves me. Truly and completely, loves me, even if it is a damn fool and so am I.
Can you say that? Does he get all of the asset and you get all the debit in the relationship? I reconciled, but I was willing to leave and only until he knew I WAS going to leave did he step up to the damn plate and be the man he could be and should have been all along.
Three years, it took 5 years for me in all ways. But only because he stepped up to the plate. I think you have to be fully willing to say goodbye before a WS truly understands that what they did hurt as deep as it did.
I can't solve your life for you, but I can tell you that I have been there and I am sending you as much love and support via cyperspace as I can. Be a strong supporter for yourself.