I have been walking on eggshells during this in house separation.
Not engaging if I can help it and staying away as much as possible.
Every single time I have been out with friends or family, he texts something nasty.
Last night my daughter and I went with family to a ball game. I mentioned it to him when he called about a financial issue, and I could just hear it in hs tone, there was going to be hell to pay.
So halfway through the game I get a text, "you are a fucking piece of work."
Sick to my stomach, I left soon after. I wanted to get home before my daughter to see what rage problem was.
Apparently I am a Fing c$&@ like my cousins who are divorced. I also am sneaky, he doesn't trust ME. How dare I go out and not give him advanced notice??? After all we are still married.
I'm ashamed to say I lost it, crying and just yelling at him that he has some nerve!! And I called his AP every name in the book and some I made up.
Didn't sleep worth a darn, but that's not a new thing.
I know I need to get out. I have to stop using my daughters health as an excuse.
If I let him continue to do this, if I continue to allow him to beat me down, they will win.
I am going to draw on the strength of you dear, strong friends here on SI.