so that means that you have no time for that immaturity. you are a wife and mother...the classy one whom your husband wants to be with. if he wanted to be with her, he would be. and she knows that.
it really is sad...the ow...and how she is acting. pathetic really. and since that is how she is acting....treat her like that...no contact...or even a look in her direction.
its okay to cry at home....i would do the same thing.
when i look back at the ow in my sitch....she is sad and pathetic too. she tried to contact both me and my h a few months after she got dumped. trying to be a "friend." ha! now...that is so sad. she was ignored...and had to deal with wondering if we got her messages or not..or why my h didnt contact her.
same with this ow you are dealing with....i am sure she is wondering what is going on with the two of you....that's her problem though, not yours. keep your head held up high. you are the queen.
[This message edited by sri624 at 3:42 PM, September 2nd (Monday)]
It really is horrible. I feel for you. Early after DDay was was terribly painful and everyday was a nightmare. I would hide in my house so i wouldn't have to deal with it.
However, as time went on...and i was able to deconstruct the A and put things more into perspective, it became more bearable. Once you get more details, wrap your head around what REALLY went on...how things REALLY were...once you see the OW for what she REALLY is...it makes it a little bit easier.
Continue to do what you are doing. Hold your head high. Walk tall. Be confident. Dont let her see you upset. Its what she wants. Dont give her the satisfaction. Dont let her think she beat you down. When you see her...keep it front and center in your mind that you are better than her. You are a good person. You are brave and loyal. You have more strength than she will ever have. She can try all she wants...but YOU hold the power, YOU control how you feel.
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Thank you.
What do you do/how to you feel/how do you react when you see the OW?
I hold my head up and pretend I don't see her/them, I average seeing them about once every three weeks, including yesterday's bike ride. Then I usually have a meltdown where I tell my husband how pissed I am that this is my life. Ya see, I'm working really hard on staying in the present moment. Seeing them slaps me back into the past, and we can be having a good day and suddenly I'm forced to remember what he's done. It usually ruins a few hours of my day. I constantly wonder he's worth it. I have PTSD and seeing them is not good for me. I have no idea what the answer is. But please know that YOU didn't do anything wrong... Make your environment safe for you however you need to. Hugs!!!!
me (WW/BS): 48 him: (BS/WH)52 4 kiddos in mid 20's
“Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Acceptance is a small, quiet room.”
For me, the triggers were the guys WS works with because they all found out about affair and knew the blow-out we had, and subsequent fall back into the affair during work hours afterwards. Boy, did I feel like an idiot first couple times I saw them afterwards. Sticking around though, lots of them have told me how beautiful I am, what a great person I am, etc. Really made me feel like I was better then the situation I got caught in, through no fault of my own.
You'll see, sticking to your guns, being the classy one, people will notice and she will be the one that karma smacks in the face. Give it time.
SorrowBhindSmile thank you for your message. I'm glad I'm not the only one dealing with this. It is getting better, slowly. I have spoken with my other half who assures me I know everything, to ignore her she will fade away.
rachelc it ruins my day also. The worst thing about it is like you, I wonder if its worth it. Would it be easier to give it all up and go alone? But once the emotions die down I regret feeling like that, but its just a normal reaction, trying to protect oneself. Hope it gets easier for you.
niaveone I love the last line in your post, really made me smile :) Its hard being the classy one, but I think worth it in the long run. I have plenty of blow outs with her in my imagination, but they have to stay there!
HUGS to you all thank you for your kind messages.
Head held high!
it wont happen again.
WH here. If an independent research firm took a poll of 1000 random people who were given a choice to have either you, or this OW, as a friend, spouse, parent, daughter, or even just a stranger who they might need help from in an emergency, I'm venturing to guess 998 would choose you.
Your class and dignity in the face of her vulgarity and pathetic middle school antics speak volumes about who you are...and who she'll never be. Stay true to your inner self, and I hope some time in the future you'll be able to feel only this for her: pity. It's all she deserves.
JD
I want to be able to enjoy their school years, not dread every school function.
I wish I could record all your comments and listen to them on my walk to the school, what a confidence boost. This forum is amazing.
Zayda I'm sorry you had to move your children it's horrible feeling that you have to change your life to suit them. I am lucky in that e OW doesn't participate in any other school activities other than picking him up, I don't even think she has full custody of him he lives with his granny. I find it hard not to trigger I still get sweaty palms, racing heart, faint, but I just fake the confidence and once I get home I'm fine. Hope ur doing ok now.
Xxxxx
But don't listen to me, listen to JustDesserts, he's got it right.
^^^Truer words were never spoken.
The truth hurts, but I have never seen it cause the pain that lies do.
I think I would be pulling out my cell phone discretely and taping her behaviour. Then I would show it to your husband. I think he needs to know what kind of woman he brought into your world.
I agree with everyone who says to keep your cool around her. She isn't good enough to see your hurt. She deserves nothing but the bad Karma she will eventually get back by someone less hand. Trust me, it will come back to bite her in the butt. Especially if she is doing this and people who know watch!!! It is a small town....hold your head high.
T
Through thick and thin we will survive but he gets only one shot at it!
What do you do/how to you feel/how do you react when you see the OW? I have to see her occasionally on the school run or in shops. I find it very difficult.
Amber, I am so sorry you have to go through this too.
To answer your questions: What do you do? Nothing. She isn't worth my time. She's used trash - and she knows it. How do I feel? Honestly, I feel angry. I know, I'm working on it. How do you react? Depends on the situation.
Background: My WH had an affair with a woman in the PTA 10 years ago. She spent a year f'ing my husband and playing mommy to my children while I was at work and he was taking my kids to PTA sponsored activities. The other women in the group new about it and, I feel, watched my life come apart like some reality show. Whatever. I still see her at EVERY school event and activity at the school. Honestly, I've become somewhat numb to it, but not quite, as no matter where my husband and I sit at these events she is always within 10 feet of us. Even if we move around. (I stopped moving around 5 years ago and just let him suck it up)
However, last Friday there was a real breakthrough at the HS football game. Once again, we find seats and OW decides to sit one row down and 5 feet to the left of us on the bleachers - next to the walkway. This time, however, my friends were with us to see their god children perform. God bless her, my BFF saw what was happening and stopped on her way up the stairs right behind OW and turned around and mooned me and started shaking her butt! (She had on leggings and a long blouse, no indecent exposure on school grounds!) My kids started saw and started playing "Can't Touch This" Bleacher music, and the band joined in! Well, I burst out laughing and and POINTING toward her! My WH looked over where I was pointing and bust out laughing. OW thought we were laughing at HER and everyone around us was laughing! OW turned beat red, burst out crying, got up and RAN amongst cat calls of WOO HOO SHAKE IT, BABY!! that weren't even at her. I guess OW's "all about her" attitude backfired this time.
Hang in there, Amber. It always will effect you. How it effects you is YOUR choice. Every time you hold your head up and survive, you prove you are the better person.
{{{Amber}}}
At first it was horrible. I would shake and later have such anxiety. It was devastating.
Now, I'm indifferent. Some days I'm ok and others are horrible.
I'm learning to hold my head high. Why should I feel anything but. I put on a brave face and smile. I'm loyal. I'm HIS wife. I am an admirable person. And she's pathetic. I used to worry what people thought of me...
Now, who cares? I'm not the one who should feel embarrassment. That's on them. I'm loyal, faithful, and a good person. She's broken. I mean, how could anyone look at themselves and feel good knowing they are a homewrecker?!?! Does it make her look good knowing she could have destroyed a family? She was used? She's nothing compared to his wife who he has children with?!
I probably give her too much credit. She didn't care. She did it anyway. She lied to me after the first dday.
I pity her. And you should too.
