Has anyone else experienced this?
But it's getting better. I'm starting to enjoy my own company more, and not think about her QUITE as much, and I'm sure it's bound to get better.
It will for you too. Eventually you'll just step into Dad Mode, and things will seem normal.
The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous!
I admire you for this, but I think it's part of the problem. You don't have a clean break from her. Her "ghost" is always there, the memories and scents and just things that are her are constantly in your face.
I had to get out of our home and get my own. One not ever touched by his nasty ass. I think you are doing a great thing for your kids, but at what cost to you?
It's OKAY to be scared.
Being scared means you're about
to do something really, really brave.