If you have read my past posts, 3 months ago I noticed OW#3 had removed pics and notice of engagement to my STBXH. I thought they were setting me up for custody. Divorce mediation was early August.
Anyway, in the past 2.5 months OW#3 has been joining all the single meetups that I belong to. Great, NOT. Fortunately it looks like she is not athletic and has not joined any of those type of meetups I belong to (and mostly go go).
Here is what I am trying to sort out. Divorce is almost done. From my perspective at least OW#3 is perhaps not happy. I doubt my STBXH pays attention to what she does online. Who knows if he is unhappy or not. I would like to think Karma is biting him with a very unhappy home life.
My problem is that part of me wants him to be so miserable he realizes what he has lost and figures out how to fix it. That he will somehow turn into the man I thought he was.
I feel like I am crazy thinking this way. But I still after 20 months can't get over what he has done to our family.
Anyone else go through this? I mean we all talk about waywards living in unicorn land, but my goodness, I feel like I am in it too, thinking he will suddenly see the light.
I can't tell anyone irl they would think I am crazy. Counseling session isn't until next week.
I would not even know this but for seeing OW#3 on my meetup groups now.
WS: Just a squished bug on the window of my life!
Divorced-Let my new beginning start
They have a choice: they can live in my new world, or they can die in their old one." — Daenerys Targaryen