I miss the faith she had in me
I miss the love she showed me everyday
I miss the love in her eye, and the giggle after a kiss
I miss her head on my shoulder and my fingers in her hair
I hate myself
Even more than she does!
I hate the man I became
I put on a face for the public, and even for her.
I don't want anyone to see the real me.
It's humiliating, embarrassing and disgusting.
How did I do what I did?
I look inside myself for an answer, but it doesn't come
I pray that one day she will forgive me, she's trying but it's so hard.
I hurt her so deeply...
She says she loves me, but I see the truth in her eyes.
I was so stupid. I always hated people like me, now I hate myself.
I love my wife...