I get the logic of it, but it's heartbreaking none the less. WHY GET MARRIED THEN? Why commit to someone and let them think you are in this thing called life together, if there is always that "what if?" in the back of your mind that the other person can just bail at a moment's notice.
It makes me want to just throw my wedding rings in the dresser drawer and say the hell with everything. Why go through counseling if you may feel one thing that day and "eh, not feeling it" today?
His answer is that they mean something at the time, but times change and you never know what the other person is thinking or is going to feel down the road.
I think most people realize that some days are going to be great, some OK, and some, not so much. The vow he took when he got married covered off those days of "eh, not feeling it". I imagine you've had those days as well, but remained committed to your marriage.
Marriage doesn't make you happy, it makes you married.
What did your MC think about his response to you?
Married over 11 years, together for 20.
DD#1: 12/12/10 - LTA of 3 years, 2 mos.
DD#2: 02/02/11 - 2 EA/PA with coworkers, a month after the LTA was ended (by OW).
In tentative reconciliation.
That aside, since it isn't the point of your post, your WH's response to the vow question is a cop out. I agree. People changes, things change. But that is NOT a bad thing. Change is good. But even when it isn't welcome, it doesn't give someone the right to break vows.
Why commit to someone and let them think you are in this thing called life together, if there is always that "what if?" in the back of your mind that the other person can just bail at a moment's notice.
Yep. That's the difference between feelings and commitment. Feelings change, of course they do. On a daily basis. Commitment - marriage - means that you have made a lifestyle choice that goes beyond feelings. But too many people base commitment on feelings. "Am I in love with you right now? If I'm not, then there's no commitment." That idea of commitment must be very shallow indeed. But it's what we're taught by the damn Disney flicks. "Happily ever after" and all that stuff...
Marriage doesn't make you happy, it makes you married.
We all change....look how adultery has changed us all.
Change is a choice....we can choose to engage our spouses as we change or we can not. IMO our vows, in part, speak to a persons commitment to engage another person on all aspects of their lives, including when they change or feel a change is necessary.
Our spouses changed...they chose adultery....the did not engage us on this change. There was no COMMITMENT to engage us on this.
Is your husband saying he will engage you only when he FEELS like it? If he doesn't feel like it, will he engage another woman in ways he should just engage you?
This whole knowing what the other person is thinking or feeling is bogus.
If you are only loving a person until they do something that makes you feel like you don't want to love them...are you really going to be safe in your relationship? Without safety can true intimacy ever be had between two people?
My wife and I are learing to R. We had intimacy before her A, but the intimacy we are seeking NOW is nothing either of us has had before. Feeling safe with each other is a big key to this...and that is more then trust, though trust is a part of it.
God be with you.
I know I can trust God, but even in that relationship I sometimes don't trust God enough to let go of an issue...I continue to work it, many times in vain.
A certain level of trust is needed for intimacy, but this idea of PERFECT, UNFAILING trust in anything human will do nothing but leave you disappointed.
It is safe to say that you CAN trust their will be shortfalls in your marital relationship. What we as BS are seeking is a trust that when our fWS experience the same desire to cope with life that led them to adultery that they are committed enough to recognizing the destructive nature of their old coping mechanisms and to engage us BEFORE they step out on the marriage they committed to (committed to TWICE now)....even if it is to tell us they want a D because they feel they love someone else or they feel they don't love us anymore.
God be with us all.
[This message edited by blakesteele at 10:15 PM, September 7th (Saturday)]
Our fWS now know better, some fWS take this new knowledge and DO better....some do not.
Using cop outs is a clear sign that a WS has no new desire to do better AT THAT MOMENT IN TIME. I guarantee you that 3 months out from my DD my wife had no intention of really working on herself....was so selfish and consumed with her A that the desire to do ANYTHING to salvage our marriage was simply not there.
Perhaps a move away from MC and into IC for you both is prudent? If I had this to do over again I would have waited 3-6 months after DD before even talking about MC sessions.
Peace be with you.
"People change" is a bs copout. I would look for someone else. Maybe this is why marriage counseling is ridiculed so much.
It boggles the mind.
If you are the type of person who is constantly letting yourself down then you owe it to yourself to address the issue(depression, addiction, etc) in order to live an authentic, fulfilled life. If you are constantly letting your spouse down you owe them no less.
The vow 'to honor' implies this. To honor is to not only trust your spouse but to be trustworthy. Nobody is perfect, but the intent should be there. If either partner consistently fails in this then the vow is broken.
Infidelity breaks trust. Big time. It then has to be earned back. It will take time, but if the offender makes little attempt to restore that trust then the marriage relationship is doomed. It's as simple as that. No one is expected to remain in a marriage where trust can never be achieved again and those that do are not being fair or trustworthy to themselves. That is why it is so hard for the BS to heal, because they find themselves having trouble trusting their own judgment, as well as their spouse. This also takes time. In the meantime it is commitment and a leap of faith that allows us to attempt R. No guarantees. Both parties have to then do their parts and part of that is to be open to trust again. The leap of faith, remember? To remain forever emotionally guarded is not R. Failure may not guarantee divorce, but the marriage will only be ghost of what it was, a marriage in name but not emotional commitment. None of us want that. Unfortunately, many of us settle for it.
vows...they mean something at the time, but times change and you never know what the other person is thinking or is going to feel down the road.
Times didn't change, he did. And this statement, to me, implies that he is not willing to make that leap of faith, yet. He is not committed. He is in a "wait and see" state. In the case of infidelity, I don't believe anything can change until the wayward makes the leap first.