still upset about the best friend issue that is hurtful and now has trickled down to my kids, so my son has been in a bad mood since last night.
had to go to a party just 4 houses down the street today and told my son he needed to go for just ONE hour. (it was his grandpa's house) he started in on refusing to go, etc.
I had a few hours of morning "hell", lots of screaming and losing my cool.
I wanted to run out of this house and go buy cigarettes SO bad. he had me at my breaking point.
life is changing for us again on the social arena and yes it does suck, but I refuse to be a doormat anymore.
I feel i'm in a no win situation.
but I did not buy the smokes and had a decent time at the party at my in laws house.
Laughter will cure life's ills. Have you had your laugh today?
I quit about 8 years ago, 2 pack a day habit, hardlessons quit the day before me. It was one of the best decisions we ever made. We don't miss it one bit.
We both got hypnotized.
You can do this, and you will be so glad you did!!
(ps - hugs to you and DS)
"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you." -Walt Whitman
If you find yourself at the store, about to buy that pack of smokes, please re-consider and buy an e-cig, if you're determined to buy SOMETHING.
I was in a similar place a couple of weeks ago. Like you, I didn't do it and I'm SO glad now!
Life's going to throw these curveballs at you. Sometimes I think it's to test your resolve, but each time you hold true, you show the universe not only that you can take it, but that you're a force to be reckoned with.
(That's my logic anyways. Hope it makes sense. Forgive me, I've got only a half cup of coffee in me.)
In any case - way to go!
Enjoying this chapter in my life. Learning that being alone does not mean being lonely. Discovering that where I've been is not as important as where I'm going.
NIK- ty. over-eating is taking over, but oh well.
thoughtiknewya- I do have an e-cig on hand. somehow yesterday it didn't seem like enough. but I knew I had it and actually that did help to know it was there and I said at the very least "go smoke THAT if needed"...keep up the good work too...great job.
exposed - ty. yes, its the curveballs of life that will really test you. in this case, I am losing a 25 year friendship and this is REALLY hard. its a loss in my life all over again and it hurts my kids too. maybe losing isn't quite the word yet, but its deifinitely not what it was and feeling the effects of it this weekend has my stomach in knots and my son upset. he was so looking forward to them coming down or us going there (as we usually do).
Might want to try an eGo type battery with variable voltage, then you can turn it up when you need it and down when you don't. That's priceless in stress situations for me.
If you're interested let me know and I'll point you in the right direction...
But rest assured, the cravings and old habits DO lessen over time. It takes a whole busload of crazy with a side of WTF?? to make me want to smoke these days. And all I have to do, is remember how awful it smells to me now to fight it off.
Stay strong! You can do this!
Its fu*king hard
Yes, it is!! But you did good and the longer you go without a cigarette, the quicker those feelings of wanting one will go away.
I quit ten years ago and I never thought I would be able to do it. I had smoked since I was 15 years old and was up to 3 packs a day when I quit.
You are doing this for You...don't let anyone get in the way of achieving your goal!!
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It takes all kinds of kinds....Miranda Lambert
That's why AA and NA meetings are full of recovering alcoholics and addicts who still smoke.
CONGRATULATIONS! You survived a very trying day, and did not give in to the drug that had its tentacles around you.
That's a pretty big deal, you know
I'm not telling you what to do just letting you know I'm proud of you.
I have/had the blu cig as well, I heard it's equivalent to 2 packs with the nicotine, glad it lasts you a long time. Mee too.
Do you do breathing exercises? I've had to do some and found it helped calm me down.
(((click)))
The future's so bright - I got to wear shades
Plant Seeds of Kindness
Don't say yet.
Have you ever looked into getting hypnotized, some people don't like it, so not sure where you stand on that. The guy that did us made it so that our subconscious believed we were never smokers, after about a week, it really took hold and I have to really try to remember that I used to smoke. I can be around smokers and never crave it, it just really bugs me.
Even in times of stress I don't want it. It just really worked for us, but I do believe the guy that did it was really awesome.
