I kicked my husband out of the house last night. Not because of the affair, we are both mad hatters, but because he threw my 12 year old son up against a wall and pinned him with his forearm on his neck. He screamed and cursed at me and the kids.
Part of our marriage counseling was dealing with his anger management problems. He has been verbally abusive to me and my son, physically abusive with my son for years.
My heart is breaking. I love him, but I have to love my kids more. This is so hard.
I've been noticing other couples a lot over the past few months and realized that its not normal for a husband to yell and cuss at his wife and kids. Its not normal to be afraid of your husband.
I think I have finally realized that I am the abused wife that I swore I would never be and as I was trying to be the peace-maker in my home, I stood by and let my husband abuse our son.
I promised my son last night that I would never let his father hurt him again. I told my husband tonight that he can't come back unless I'm convinced that what happened last night will never happen again and his promises won't be enough to convince me.
Watching him pack his bags was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I so badly wanted to tell him to stay, we can work this out. But I can't do that.
I have always considered myself a strong, independent woman, but I feel so weak right now. We will have been married for 15 years in early Oct. I feel like I have a huge hole in my heart and all I have to live for are my children.
I don't know what my future holds and life has never scared me, but it is now.
Married 15 yrs.
Mine DD - 6/2012
His DD - 5/2013