After months of struggle in the dark hell. Finally I got some strength back and can think straight and talk to him calmly!
I am trying so hard to keep myself together and be "amicable", maybe because we have kids, we just can not cut and run, or maybe i still love the stupid guy or i am not type if person to start a nasty fight, anyways finally we reached an agreement about pretty much everything and the SE agreement should be done this week!
But this morning he called and cried and said he still loves me, he did wrong, but he never felt anyone loves him crazy like this girl, he still want to keep the good terms with me and if things not working with them he said he will come back to me!
I am not your backup plan! So my whole day was messed up again! At this point I am not sure if I still want him back, I do not know what to think at this point, it definitely won't stop me countinue finish the separation agreement for sure, he is very scared of losing me now, same time he won't stop talking to her!
The shit is hard! Please get the stuff done, I do not want to hear he now changes his mind now!
I amm sooooo fed up with the shit he is creating. I want to get it done and move on!