So, I was talking to my mil, and she called WH. He supposedly has gone to a dr. out of town today, as he was running a 102 degree fever. I hadn't heard anything of this nature. He was diagnosed with strep and will supposedly be home this weekend.
I am done. I am tired of wondering what he is doing, being lied to, and trying to hold on to hope when there is nothing there.
I sent him a text immediately and told him he needs to think about what he wants for visitation and we need to file for D ASAP.
If he comes home this weekend, we are going to have to talk about the divorce and see if we can come to agreements. If not, I will go from being a stay at home mom, to having to work 2 jobs to get a lawyer and get this shit straight.
However, I REFUSE to live like this, and to be walked all over.
There are not enough words to describe how I feel right now. I have no idea what is going to happen, money being my biggest concern. What did I just do?!
I have tried so very hard to keep my emotions in line, and to stay busy, I just can't do it anymore. He has talked to her all day long, and it didn't cross his mind to call or text and say "hey, I won't be home like I was supposed to , tell the baby I love her." That right there shows me just how little he cares, and that is what set me off of the deep in. I have had a migraine all day, and the last two days have been extremely hard.
How is this my life?! What the hell have I ever done to deserve this?! I don't have time to feel sorry for myself right now, but damn it, I hate him!