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I posted a thread earlier today about feeling like something was off with my H. I've spent a lot of time going through emails, Facebook, dresser drawers, and a bunch of other places. Found nothing. So, I sat on the couch to eat some lunch, watch crap TV, and take a break from going crazy. So, I'm sitting on the couch when it just suddenly hits me. I'm acting like completely insane. Really. This fear that my H is hiding something came out of no where. I only get totally crazy in two situations. The first is the day before and during my period. Yeah, I'm definitely not any fun around that time. The second is when I'm pregnant.

I'm pregnant.

Holy fuck! I'm pregnant! How in the hell am I supposed to tell my H this? I'm not happy. He won't be happy. We don't want more kids. I'm not supposed to be able to have more kids. God damn it all to hell! I didn't go through a ridiculously painful procedure to prevent pregnancy only to get knocked up again. I'm fucking pissed and want to punch and break a whole lot of shit. At the same time, I want to drive to see my H and just cry.

Oh, I forgot to mention that I do have a positive test. Ugh. Fuck my life.

When I became pregnant with my 2nd child, I felt the same way. But, I tell you, this child has been the absolute most awesome think that has ever happened to me. Yep, my XWH was an ass when I told him. He wanted me to abort. I thought, nope, I'll get rid of YOU before I abort the baby. My youngest son brings me flowers, just walks up and gives me hugs - and he's an 8th grade rough as they come boy!!!

Hugs to you, Frigidfire. I got pregnant with our HB baby about 4 months after DDay. I love her dearly, but I remember the shock looking at that pregnancy test.

How are you guys doing with reconciliation?

We're not in R. He's not doing a whole bunch of things wrong or anything, he's just not doing much of anything at all. We've been in Limbo for two years now. I seriously don't want more kids. Honestly though, I doubt this pregnancy will make it very far. My daughter was my miracle. I've lost three others. One at 8 weeks, one at 11 weeks, and one at 23 weeks. Two were before my daughter, one was after. Getting pregnant is easy for me (well, it shouldn't have been this time). Staying pregnant is the hard part. I don't want to deal with any of this again.

What procedure did you go through to prevent? I only ask because if you had an ablation (I did) it can be VERY dangerous to get pregnant. Please call your GYN asap if that is the case.

I'm so sorry you are dealing with this.

((HUGS)) Please call your doctor. Take care of you.

(((((frigidfire))))) Sending you strength, honey.

I know what you mean. I found out I was pregnant while going through college at the age of 31. My DD was 10 at the time. XWH#1 was not happy and sceduled an abortion. After 3 days of crying, I told him I would not have the abortion. His response was, fine then you raise him. XWH#1 refused to help me with him at all during the first few years and that was fine with me. He was the most special baby and was such a momma's boy for years. I never regretted it other than it kept me in the marriage a lot longer than I wanted to be. I finally filed for D when he was 8 and the X-ass had the nerve to fight me for custody for 2.5 years. He didn't want to have to pay CS was the only reason he wanted him. Then he spent the next few years turning my son against me every chance he got. It was horrible what he did to my DS. Even with all that I never regretted having him. He is 19 now and in the Marines and is stationed in Japan. I really miss him alot.

Give yourself time to think about what you want. I have always thought that there is a reason for everything that happens to us. Ultimately it is your decision to make. (((HUGS)))

Calm down honey and just take a breather. I know it's a shock. I truly believe things happen for a reason. Just take it one day at a time and don't make any rash decisions.

(((Frigidfire))))

Seriously honey if you had an ablation, or similar type procedure you are at risk for having some serious problems.

Get thee to the Dr ASAP.

Just sending you some hugs.

Take care of yourself hun.

::hug::

Sending hugs ((FF))

Just breathe sweetie.

And please call your doc.