Have given lots of thought lately to why I am trying to R when it would be very easy for me to pick up and move on. Obviously I desire to have what I thought my marriage was, and it's hard to give up on that. But I've been letting go of a lot of the guilt I felt in the past thinking about D, realizing that that is my choice and a valid one at that.
I had uncovered a lot of details ab WH Internet cheating - different sites, how long it had been going on, etc... that hadn't been made clear to me by him. So I asked for full disclosure, even asking pointed questions about these things so he would have NO excuse for leaving them out. And I was lied to again, to my face. And with that, I know where he stands and what my decision needs to be moving forward. Not at all what I had hoped for, but it is what it is.