Today is my sweet, baby boy's first birthday. I spent the day with him before Gnat and Hello Kitty got the kids overnight. I have them all weekend and am having a birthday party on Sunday which they are NOT invited to.
I was thinking back to a year ago when I gave birth to him. It was such a happy time for us. I never in a million years would have imagined that anything like this would have happened. I would never have dreamed I'd be a single mom before he turned one.
Ironically, I didn't feel that sad about it. I sort of just thought about it in a matter of fact way. It's been a tough year, but I'm closer to my kids than ever. The outpouring of support I've received has been humbling. I've got wonderful friends and family and I have a really full life. Life is much richer than I could have imagined a year ago.
I know I've still got a lot of work to do on this road to healing, but I also know I've come a long ways. I'm feeling blessed tonight and really hopeful about my future.
