some days are jut hard. I want to keep moving forward but some days its like the pain is so fresh again. i know this is normal but its hard.
I got a ticket today and it really wasn't my fault. But, the (female) officer would not give me a break. I just broke down in tears in front of her and she probably thought I was crazy.
During the A periods, I also got a ticket and my H was NOT nice or understanding at all when he found out. It was right around when I found out about the A and I was so hurt that here I was supposed to forgive him for all his transgressions against me yet my H had to be angry at me for making one mistake? At the time, he was like--well I am NOT paying for that ticket, you are going to have to go to court etc...yet he had just told one of his OW via an email that he was going to give her $300 to "help her out"...and then same woman asked for another 300 last august btw--I have no idea if he really paid her or not--but its just the pain of it all...here he didn't want to pay a ticket but its ok for him to just give 300 away to a mere acquaintance on the internet???
So the pain of all this got drudged up today. I am still crying--over the past really, not the ticket--just everything that I went through last year.
