Well, after being together for 22 years and married for 17, he had an affair 2 1/2 years ago and has never came clean until this April. He has given me false reconciliations, separated and then just came back for a week.
He told me that he cannot be the man he wants me to be and that we are done. I have closed the bank account, deleted his email and fb account, threw his clothes out on the lawn (which he made my son pick up) and here I am crying my heart out all over again.
During the separation, he had told me that he was staying with his mother and come to find out he was not. And he's been out of the house for 3 days already and he's yet to stay at her place, where he said he was going again. I know I shouldn't care, I just want honesty...I mean if we aren't together anymore, it would just be nice to know that there was someone else so it would make more sense.
I have never felt this down during all of this. Even during the separation, I was fine and ready to spread my wings, which is why he came back "the thought of you being with someone else kills me".
How do you get passed the tears, because I really don't want to shed anymore for him!
I don't have much of a support group because they thought I was stupid to even take him back. Just feeling very alone and worthless.