Me: BW 38, Him: WH 37
Its been a while since I posted but lord knows SI has been a lifesaver for me. Long story short 1 1/2 years ago I discovered my ex-h's secrets and lies. R was not a option, he had zero remorse and continued to lie, so I filed and D was granted six months later. In that time I met and dated one man. I knew it was moving too quickly, but ignored the signs. I discovered that "I" was the other woman and that he was married to a woman in a small country in Europe. I broke it off immediately upon finding out.
Fast forward six months. I had decided first off that I need to fix my broken picker. I have been staying away from dating websites and basically just living life. I figured if I meet someone great, if not then fine single life it is. I made a list of the attributes I want in my next partner, and hopefully somewhere this man exists.
This all sounds great right? Well, it is harder than I thought. I live in a small town of less than 1000 people. I try to be active, I am on the volunteer fire dept and have a satisfying job that I have been at long term. Evenings are long and lonely though and all I seem to do is go on evening walks and watch TV. There isn't much to do here and the few friends I have here are usually busy with their families. I feel so alone and at times think about how easy it would be to go on POF (where I met married ex-bf) and just meet someone. But the prospect of a long distance relationship scares me. Been there, done that and have been burned.
I guess I am just not done my healing and still feeling sad. It pisses me off that xh was able to jump into his relationship and ride off into the sunset happily ever after while I still spend my Saturday nights alone trying to put my broken pieces back together. Anyone else feel this way? How do you cope?
[This message edited by burnedcanuckEMS at 9:41 PM, September 14th (Saturday)]
Divorce Granted on December 5, 2012 - fasted divorce ever (thanks to my good lawyer) and I am not looking back with ANY regrets!!
PS...sorry for any spelling errors or missing letters etc..... ty