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Stace0421 (original poster new member #37256) posted at 2:47 AM on Sunday, September 15th, 2013
It all sounds so stupid, but its just now sinking in that its only a matter of time until I will have to leave. I'm still gathering "evidence", but deep down I know that it hasn't stopped, & isn't going to. So I have no choice. I have to prepare to leave. Get my ducks in a row. I know he'd gladly live forever like "this", but I can't. I go through the motions & smile and nod while he talks about the boat "we" are going to buy for vacation in the spring or which countertops & appliances "we" will choose. All of this is insignificant though bc there won't be a "we" anymore...it's sad, but its reality. Does he honestly think this is normal? That this is just how life is? No big deal? Sorry. I don't know how to feel right now. I need this time to plan my exit, but at the same time its sad..bc I don't know where the hell I'll even be living 6 months from now or how ill make it. I feel like I'm living in slow motion..
GraceisGood ( member #17686) posted at 2:51 AM on Sunday, September 15th, 2013
We have a tendency to think the love offered us is a reflection of our worth and value.But in actuality,it's a reflection of the person that is giving it.We love out of who WE are-not because of who the receiver is.At least in terms of real love.TSMF
Rainbows ( member #39362) posted at 8:19 AM on Sunday, September 15th, 2013
Sending you lots of hugs.
I was in those shoes earlier this year. My brain went into hyper thinking mode which helped me prepare to file for D.
A lot of unexpected emotions will come up, but that's when I think about being in the exact same spot 5, 10 years from now. I kick myself for giving him the first second chance and would never have forgiven myself for sacrificing more time.
Hang in there
There is always a rainbow after every storm.
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