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Dealing with realizations & living in slow motion

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Stace0421 posted 9/14/2013 20:47 PM

It all sounds so stupid, but its just now sinking in that its only a matter of time until I will have to leave. I'm still gathering "evidence", but deep down I know that it hasn't stopped, & isn't going to. So I have no choice. I have to prepare to leave. Get my ducks in a row. I know he'd gladly live forever like "this", but I can't. I go through the motions & smile and nod while he talks about the boat "we" are going to buy for vacation in the spring or which countertops & appliances "we" will choose. All of this is insignificant though bc there won't be a "we"'s sad, but its reality. Does he honestly think this is normal? That this is just how life is? No big deal? Sorry. I don't know how to feel right now. I need this time to plan my exit, but at the same time its sad..bc I don't know where the hell I'll even be living 6 months from now or how ill make it. I feel like I'm living in slow motion..

GraceisGood posted 9/14/2013 20:51 PM


Rainbows posted 9/15/2013 02:19 AM

Sending you lots of hugs.

I was in those shoes earlier this year. My brain went into hyper thinking mode which helped me prepare to file for D.

A lot of unexpected emotions will come up, but that's when I think about being in the exact same spot 5, 10 years from now. I kick myself for giving him the first second chance and would never have forgiven myself for sacrificing more time.

Hang in there

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