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inlove2013 posted 9/15/2013 21:01 PM

I have been married for 25 years, renewed our vows on 2-2-13 he left 3-23-13 and admitted adultery.

The PAIN is REAL and it is HARD to explain and to deal with.

This came out of no where and hit me like a truck.

I have had a VERY hard time dealing with all of this. I cant wrap my mind around any of it.

People tell me move on and get over it!! WTHECK how do you turn off feelings after 25 years?? He tells me I will learn how!!! I dont think so. I was in this whole heart and soul.

How do I deal with all of this?? I dont know how. We have 3 grown daughters and 2 young granddaughters.

I am no where near ready to even think about forgiveness, I cant stand to be anywhere near him. His parents treat me like the plague.

I have done nothing wrong but love their son with all my heart and soul.

My heart is shattered beyond repair. There are days that are so dark.

I am so full of hate, anger, embarrassment, and shame.

How do you move past the pain and suffering??

PositiveAttitude posted 9/15/2013 21:07 PM

I don't have any advice for you, but I would like to offer you (((HUGS))) galore!

I can read the grief and anguish in your post - and while I'm not in that phase anymore it was literally the darkest time of my life.

Time and personal growth helped me to begin to heal. That and coming here a few days ago and finally realizing all the excuses that I was making for him and his behavior!

Take care of you. Eat, stay hydrated, sleep.

Skan posted 9/15/2013 21:56 PM

It's all that damned four-letter word, time. You have to give yourself time to grieve, to mourn, to ache, to be in pain. You are grieving the death of 25 years together with someone that you thought you would be with for the rest of your life. That is worth mourning. You have to let your body, mind, and soul take the time needed, to say goodbye. Only then, can you start to look forward.

But mourn what could have been, don't sugarcoat and mourn that which was not. Don't build a shrine in your heart for what wasn't. Grieve, and then let yourself look forward. (((hugs)))

homewrecked2011 posted 9/15/2013 22:06 PM

It took me a while to get my mind around it also. Please get into counseling asap, it is the only thing that saved me - (and SI).

What has happened to you is emotional abuse. A "normal" person would not have done this to their spouse. A "normal" husband would have tried marriage counseling, then divorced, then healed for at least 6 months, THEN looked for a new person.

I do remember those dark first days, as my H set up a whole "friendship" sort of thing with her H and OW, and me. The H of the OW was tricked, as I was into believing we were all good friends, but the whole deal was a set up so they could be together more. When I figured it out A YEAR LATER, I could feel my brain skip a gear. Literally.

My H family won't talk to me to this day, and the H of the oW STILL does not believe the two of them were together during that time.

What I am trying to say is you have been transplanted into a world of crazy and you do not belong there. Continue to get support from SI because almost every single person on here has felt the betrayal, the confusion, then finally peace as we move on and heal.

Thefly559 posted 9/15/2013 23:01 PM

Sorry you are here . No remorse is a whole other pain. I know I am there ! I feel the pain in your words and it brings me back. I am 5 months into d day and divorce with no remorse. The pain eases some as time goes by I can guarantee you that. I didn't believe it either. We were together 18 years. I searched for why and how for a long time , I beat the crap out of myself and still do at times. It is not something I want to do , it is something I have to do ! As do you! Start taking care of you! And no! Do not just get over it ! And stay away from those people! Cut them out of your life ! Take your time , heal at your pace , as you need to ! Everyone takes sides now so do not get offended it happened to a lot of us ! Her father who was my best friend and her cousin who was my best friend for 30 years , hung out with her and her boyfriend while we were still married. !!!!! I still can't believe it . But I HAVE to. I have no choice as you also do not. It took me a long time to realize I cannot control these people so I used my anger to cut them out of my life totally!! No looking back . As they did to me . I feel your pain believe me and I am sorry . But take some comfort in knowing you are not alone we yes we , 40,000+ people are here for you with great advice and sympathy. Good luck on you journey and stay strong. Please

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