Not much you can do to make you feel much better today. But you can make this temporary discomfort depending on what YOU do. Make a change.
IMO.. you asked him to move out. Then you see what he does to win you back. Right now, he is not worthy of you. That is an unsaid value YOU must have.
Your man has many issues. Sex is his big issue… It does not matter if you turned you did not do your part... That is something to be worked on by you later, perhaps even with your next man. A masculine man knows how to communicate to his woman were she will put forward to him. A weak man will in fear run. He ran away.
Strong is attractive. He is most attracted to you today because he believes you are going to leave him. Be strong.. Make him fight extra hard for you. That will attract him more.
Risk.. He is such a weak man he may disqualify himself. Then accept that. A given in life is that everything ends. You don’t want a weak man. .that will bring you more misery.
And how your M ends will come in two ways..
He will seek IC on his own. He will give you the most heartfelt apologize (many times) and tell you he is going to change. He is going to show you what he does to change. That means he will go get help. He can do this with IC.. he can do this by changing all his male friends and finding a mentor to teach him how to be a man. He will give you time. He will build you up with words that build you up, not defensiveness. He admits and takes full responsibility for his bad choices. He will on his own give you all his passwords.. he will leave his phone open for you to see on purpose. He will stop all non-transparency behaviors.. He will make his restitution by coming clean answering all your difficult questions.. ALL OF THEM… and is a way you can process them. You will see all this without you asking for it.. Your old M will end. If he does these things, without you asking.. demanding.. Advising.. Then, you can begin to show him the new YOU you also want to be.. will also change and You seek IC too.. to know what it means to now be strong, how to fill a man needs more completely… how to demand being treated like a women needs to be treated accepting nothing less.. ever.
If he does not do the above.. You execute his choice. You make him no longer part of your world. Seek how to be a far better person in every way. Be happy single for awhile.. work on things that will build your self esteem.. Most likely many men will be very attractive to you and they will build you up. Your friends will build you up.. let them.
Fears.. Right now, you have great fears. They are real. Overcome them with courage. Start doing everything to love yourself.. meaning.. NO, I DON”T ACCEPT being abused by your man. Make him less part of your life.. If he behaves like I mentioned above.. only then do you give the blessing of a second chance. Your good will come.
Men like your man need to lose something very meaningful before they change. If you hang on, not give him penance, he is not going to change. You have given him chances before? Yes? No change right?
Never again argue with HIM needing anything. “HIM demanding trust.” HE must earn it. To even argue about this means he is not paying his penance. Know it.. and do not let him back in before he realizes this. Your Man is a fool.. “A fool thinks himself to be wise, but a wise man knows himself to be a fool.” William Shakespeare
To think he is going to tell you.. YOU MUST TRUST.. is a fool.
Mr. RRosemary, “You want our M.. YOU go figure out how to keep a woman. On your own without me at your side. In 6 months after you have proven to me you are now a real man.. I might give you a chance to be part of my world.”
See what you get in a short time.
It will be YOU who ends your grief. You be strong.. life will move you quicker in the right direction.
My 2 cents.