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Just a vent--

Yes, now it's all my fault that I found out his A was really over 7 YEARS long, and not just 8 months. Yup, found that out when he came clean about 24 hours ago--apparently very nervous about going in front of our pastor.

Oh, the blame is all on me tonight. Guess his first individual counseling session this afternoon didn't make any new brain cells connection.

Now it's MY fault that I "had to" go back and check the cell phone records this past Tues & Wed, when all he asked me to do was see why our minutes were over the limit for this month.

I *had to* keep asking him questions. I *had to* keep DIGGING. He was fine with me just thinking it was an 8 month long peccadillo...but nooooooo, I had to find out more.

Yeah, at least SEVEN YEARS long. And it wasn't just a hand job or blow job in a vehicle, it was full on sex in her bed, along with cunnilingus.

Sorry, WS, I refuse to accept blame for YOUR actions and for the lies you told and for your being caught yet again in multiple lies.

I'm going to call you on your shit, and mention that you're trying to make me defensive so as to pass the blame of the affair on to me because of my digging for more info.

You have to own your shit or you'll wallow in it.

How clueless can you be? Apparently, REALLY clueless if you are pretending so you can get away with it!

[This message edited by Hope2B at 1:50 AM, September 17th (Tuesday)]

Wow, Hope2B. I'm so sorry for all you are dealing with. Trickle truth is the absolute worst! Sure, he would much rather you didn't know all the nasty details; I'm sure you would rather not know them too (would rather they not be true!).

Of course even he knows his current argument is completely bogus.

Stay strong. You sound like you are doing well but I'm sure the pain is incredible.

I'm a member of the "7 Year Club" which I had to uncover on my own. My FWH, who can rattle off baseball/football stats for the last 100 years can't "remember" very much about his cheating.

It's all part of protecting their ass. They're well practiced in lying. It becomes second nature to them and they convince themselves that they can still get away with some BS story. They never, ever understand that no matter how painful, the truth is what we need.

I am sorry that you're dealing with this.

Yes, you had to do all those things because he *had to* go to her place, he *had to* take his pants off, he *had to* get into bed with her, he *had to* have sex with her, and he *had to* lie to you about it all.

He is clearly delusional.

Good for you for recognizing what it is, and calling it for what the BS it is.

Sorry you are having to deal with it.

((((and strength))))

I think blame-shifting is in the Cheater's 101 Handbook, probably the first paragraph. You did NOTHING wrong by checking. The truth is an important and powerful thing. Lies are powerfully destructive.

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this shit. TT is really the worst, I told my WH so many times that the truth needed to come out straight away,all of it,before I could begin to move on. Luckily I got my brain in gear during early sleepless nights and worked out from a mention of a time in Ireland that it had gone on for years before he initially admitted to. And he omitted to tell me about the chat lines too, saying they were minor compared to the affair itself. Well they were, but I pointed out that was for me to decide how important I felt they were in the overall scheme of things,not him. I think I now have pretty much the whole sorry saga out in the open, but it took a while and lots of persistent questioning from me.

I hope you do have the truth out now,just be aware that just because he was tested for STDs in 2007 doesn't mean it wasn't going on before then.

It's only once you are confidant he has told you all there is to know that you can begin to heal. We're 17 months out from d-day and R is going really well, you can get through this.