I will be divorced tomorrow. 2 months and 18 days since I filed.
I am sad that our M didn't last forever. We told each other in the early years we would grow old and die together in our house.
I told him before we got married (I was 37, he was 29) that I would give him children. I already have a DS that is 29. So I gave birth to DS15 3 weeks before our 1st anniversary. He is the best part of this M.
So, once again, I am a single mom. It's okay though, BTDT. I feel for DS, I so wanted this child to have a "forever family" bound by love, honesty and loyalty.
So my new beginnings will start tomorrow. I am buying a house with a pool and a nice large sunroom. My mom will move in with DS, me, my dog and granddog.
Dogs will have a much smaller yard though. They will go from 73 acres to a corner lot in a small subdivision.
The positives are DS will be closer to all his friends now.
I won't have to travel 15 miles to the grocery store.
I will have neighbors.
I can see my friends more often.
I get the camper and my best friend just bought a boat.
I won't have to deal with my inlaws and their "unit" mentality.
I don't have to mow 2-1/2 acres every weekend in the summer.
I don't have to do all the yard work because I'm hiring that out.
I could go on some more about how much happier I will be. But for now, I am just sad. 19 years, poof! 
