I ran into my STBX Brother in Law today at a gas station. He doesn't like me. They stayed at our house for more than sixteen months a couple years back. Mom, dad, and my precious little niece. We became best friends (the then 4 year old). We would play and laugh and tickle and cuddle. I love her so much.
When in law pulled into the gas station I saw him, smiled and waved but I intentionally stared at the gas pump. I wanted to let him make the first move. I didn't know my niece was even in the car. I noticed some movement out of the corner of my eye. He brought my Princess over to say hi. He approached, then nudged her, saying "look who it is.." She glanced at me, a shy wave. Then it struck her who I was. "JOJO!" she screamed and leapt into my arms. We talked for a few minutes, maybe ten. She told me all about kindergarten. Her new role as a big sister (in a couple weeks). How she missed me. Hasn't seen me in sooooo long. Bro in law was cordial, even pleasant. He didn't have to do that. I'll never be able to thank him enough.
I called him a month ago and asked to see his daughter once more before I leave town. When the house sells. I asked his permission to be a pen pal for as long as she wants. It will help with her writing, her reading and learning. I can stay part of her life in a small way.
When they went into the store and I got into the car I cried as hard as I did on d day. I'm crying writing this. I am going to miss that little princess so much. I'll most likely never see her again once I leave town.
I was so filled with rage at STBX WW for taking her away from me. From taking me away from her. I wanted to lash out so badly at STBX. I resisted. She's used the Princess to try to manipulate me in this process. I am better than her. I won't stoop to that. Don't need to.
I will miss my Princess.