Well, I feel like posting today (mainly because I don't feel like working).
It's strange though, I have no clue what to post about.
As I think back to when I first joined SI, I was starting several threads a day. I used to post the standard "am I over-reacting," "I can't believe she said this," "When does the TT end" "will I ever trust again," and "How do I get to forgiveness." I still see these threads daily, and it breaks my heart.
I don't really post new threads anymore, except stupid threads like "Menz need a Mod." I may comment on a thread now and but don't have a lot to contribute per say (except amazing gifs!)
So I wonder at times why I am still here. On first blush I questioned if SI has become my safety blanket...my woobie so to speak. It's possible, but I don't really think so.
I think the primary reasons I remain are two-fold. First, I feel like part of the SI family. This site literally saved me and my marriage. Yes, my wife and I put in the hard work, but work without direction or guidance doesn't really accomplish much. SI helped me focus on learning how to make the effort pay off. It helped give me some clarity in the turmoil that infidelity creates. It picked me up out of the mud when it seemed that everything was lost.
Second, maybe I do use SI as a security blanket. It's comforting to me to see those that have made it through this mess. To see the WS's who have grown and still stay on here supporting others. To see the BS's become strong again, whether reconciling or moving on. Yes, this is a terrible club to be a part of. But it is still amazing to me to watch the growth of members over time. I have been her a couple of years, and watching the progress of many of the SI members has been a true honor. It reaffirms my faith in people's ability to persevere and to display true compassion for others.
To those just starting out. Whether you make it through R or not, you will make it to a better place. Strength comes back, trust in yourself comes back. Happiness comes back.
I am nearing two years now. JNRPA and I have had some set-backs. Lord knows we nearly didn't make it. I filed once, she nearly filed later. There were fights, tears, abuse. Things that neither of us are proud of. But, as I sit here at my new home office. My wife sitting across the room. I am at peace. Happy. Our communication is good. Hell, even my trust has come back.
Anyway, nothing profound here. Just wanted to share my appreciation to the staff and members here.
Now, here's a happy dance gif:
ETA: Well, it was going to a positive update when I started typing...it kind of morphed over the course of writing and then I forgot to change the subject. Whooops.
ETA: The title was renamed to more accurately reflect the thread's contents...Thanks Jo2love!
[This message edited by wonderboy at 4:15 PM, September 20th (Friday)]