The good part is I have the freedom to leave anytime I want to. Leaving would have financially ruined me/us before. Now it would be a big step backwards, but I could make an ok life for myself. I'm not on the cusp of leaving or anything, but I have to say it makes me feel like I'm in a position of strength. And should he give cheating another go, I would leave in a heartbeat. I don't think he will... but obviously I've been naive before. If another affair comes to light from the past, that he didn't divulge, I think I'd leave then too.
I'm feeling really down today.
sorry you are feeling down.
Congrats on the job and feeling the ability to leave and be able to take care of yourself if you needed. I understand how that feels, but the sadness that is the other side of the coin as to why one needs to be able to "take care of themselves", just in case.
Grace
Sorry you are having a difficult time lately.
It's hard to make a decision when you're too tired to hold on and too in love to let go. ~ unknown
“The most difficult times for many of us are the ones we give ourselves.” ― Pema Chödrön
When I am feeling really down like this, I tend to want to blame FWH for ruining everything ... and it's not helpful. I mean, what he did was really really awful and mean. But we're here now, and I need to refocus on myself. What am I doing to heal? Right now, not much, just licking my old wounds.
I am trying to keep my "self-talk" positive, reminding myself that what others think of me is none of my business (don't know why but this helps me :) and also keep telling myself that *I* am responsible for my happiness.
I don't want to connect with him emotionally when I'm feeling this way, but I probably should try. This stuff isn't easy, nor is it for the faint at heart, is it?
I agree. There is nothing easy about this. Please be gentle with yourself. Leaning on your WH may help strengthen your bond. Sending you strength and hope for better days.
