I am just your ordinary average everyday sane psycho supergoddess - Liz Phair
A week or so from DDay 2?
It's still early, I think you are still processing.
Think of it this way, a plane has crashed, a big one, lots of debris, you are the only person sifting through that debris right now, it's going to take a while.
Have you tried journaling?
Don't keep dancing with the Devil and wonder why you are still in Hell.
It's all shits and giggles until someone giggles and shits.