It's been ten months since Dday (well, in 2 days). I have filed for divorce and mediation is set for Oct. 30.
Just found out two days ago, he and the OW are engaged. I knew that would happen, but did not anticipate it would happen before the divorce was final.
I didn't think this would upset me, but it has. I am mourning the marriage to the man I THOUGHT I married, not the narcissistic, self involved, selfish, heartless man I know him to be now.
] know this is just another bump in the road. Before finding this out, I have been feeling, I don't know, more accepting of the situation. I found my laugh a few weeks back, which is wonderful. I've had moments of peace and contentment. So, it does get better.
Today, it is my birthday. I am 55 years old today. Did not think this is where I would be at 55 - divorcing. I am slipping a bit back into that thinking, of what was wrong with me?? I know the affair was about him, his dysfunction. But, on some level, I take his affair as a complete rejection of me, of the love I had for him. That I was not enough. I know that thought is not true, it's just a manifestation of my own low self-esteem (which is probably why I married him - he always had a bad temper and I accepted that.).
So, a few more tears to be shed over this (again). I am not as devastated as I was before. I have not been rolled up in a ball on the floor sobbing my eyes out. I spent a lot of time doing that. So, I know that I am stronger and moving on. It just hurts today.
Sorry that your stbx continues to be a thorn in your side....
In my effort to be *concise*, I often come off as blunt and harsh. Sorry, don't mean to be offensive.
But here's the flip side to his engagement.....
He's HER PROBLEM now.
Thank the Powers That Be for karma.
k9
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You know 55 is today's new 40.. and you lost a lot of weight- 200lbs of cheating douchebag loser, so that is something to celebrate too!
As K9 put it, you luckily are rid of that jerk and at 55, you have so much time left to find someone who will appreciate, respect and cherish you... someone legitimate to enjoy your golden years with... all the while Mr. Loser will be treating his next victim like dirt, cheating and philandering on HER, not YOU.
Sorry for your tears and pain. I just know you will bounce back, mend that broken heart and emerge in so much a better life & situation.
Good luck to you!
Much love to you on your BD. 55 is the new 40...I should know, I just turned 55
Stay strong my friend, the best is yet to come.
Never forget what is worth remembering or remember what is best forgotten. Unknown
I hope you find some peace and joy on your Birthday. Next year hopefully won't hurt as much and you will be having new adventures.
(((Dawn58)))
he and the OW are engaged
Karma in the works---they are both getting what they deserve---each other. And you are free from it.
Please read Traildad's post "Is this how it begins? " in the New Beginnings forum. I pray for something like that to happen to you Dawn58.
I know it is so difficult right now. Sending you hugs & strength.
Think of it this way - she's now stuck with him and you are FREE. So sorry you're hurting right now. Take care of yourself.
As for that shit union...the odds are SO AGAINST it.
Continue to move forward with your life. Good things do happen to GOOD people. You will find happiness without him.
Wishing you a wonderful birthday and a fantastic year ahead.
The truth hurts, but I have never seen it cause the pain that lies do.
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It sucks that our emotional brain engages so quickly and our logic takes a minute or three to catch up! Just shows how normal you are.
I'm glad you know that you are more than enough and that this is just another bump in the road.
A toast to you, on your birthday, being stronger and moving on.
Happy birthday, it may not feel like it now but you've been anded a gift.
Happy Birthday to you and may you find some peace and strength in your journey forward. Proud of you.
Yeah, I totally get what a shitty thing your BH has done - and continues to do - all in the pursuit of HIS happiness because after all...this is HIS world, we just live in it.
What a joke - getting 'engaged' while he's still legally married. And what kind of classless IMBECILE wears this ring and actually believes she's going to live 'happily ever after?' Is she learning challenged?
You know Dawn, one day you're going to be given the sheer pleasure of watching these two crash and burn. It may not happen for another 10 or 20 years, but one day, you're going to see it happen. Because sooner or later, the cosmos always manages to find a way to right itself, doesn't it?
But honestly? By then, you'll be healed and moved on and the only thing you'll feel is indifference. And what a glorious day that will BE for you.
Happy Birthday!!!
Think of this birthday as a celebration of your new and free life - you deserve no less.
More hugs,
Lala
HAPPY BIRTHDAY - Make sure you do something special and maybe even a little selfish for you!
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**If I edit I'm correcting a typo!**
Hang in there! This too shall pass! You've come a looooong way!
"The Secret of Change is to focus all your energy - not on fighting the old, but on building the new" ~~Lori Greiner FB post~~
