I do feel sad though. I am mourning the loss of my marriage - the dream of the marriage I thought I had actually. I feel sad that there will be no one to celebrate my birthday with me tonight - even though I will be in class tonight. My Dad and niece called me this morning to wish me a happy birthday and the gentleman I started dating a couple of weeks ago took me out to dinner last night and brought me flowers. So that was very sweet. I need to focus on what is in my life now and be grateful for that.
I know that is what I should be doing, but I find myself looking back today. I had to send some stuff to the attorney regarding the divorce today and found out that my soon to be ex is already engaged to the other woman. Found that out 2 days ago. My mother also died on my birthday 25 years ago. So, I guess there is reason to feel sad on this day. Maybe I should throw myself a pity party tonight!!!
I am very grateful for my friends and family. I am so very grateful that the cheater is no longer in my life and as painful as the separation has been, it has afforded me a chance to create a better life for myself. I am grateful that I found a passion and am in school pursuing that. I am grateful that I saw my son this week up in the Bay area and had so much fun with him. So, there is good in my life today.
I am so grateful that I am not with the soon to be ex. I am so grateful that I love myself enough to know that I do not deserve that. I am so grateful for the strength and courage that I have found. I am so grateful that I found my laughter again and for the moments of peace and contentment I have found. I am grateful for the warmth of the sun on my face. I am grateful for the brave people I have met on this website, who have found recovery, one step at a time and emerge on other side, giving me the courage and hope to keep on!!!!
My wish is that my heart heals so that I can be the loving, whole, strong and kind woman that I know I am. My wish is to release the man I married, so that I may move on with grace and dignity. That is my wish for today.
{{{birthday hug}}}
Yaknow Lady....it sure sounds to me like you've got yourself together and pretty soon you'll be running for "Overlord of the World".
Go have a birthday cookie (cakes are highly over-rated).
k9
Sometimes our healing is so incremental that we can't see it, but you've made so much progress and will make so much more.
Married: 11 years, no kids
Character is destiny
I love the idea phmh had, save this for next year and I bet you will be amazed at how much you heal in the next year!
I pray that today and all days forward that you value yourself to never settle for less than you deserve.
God has breathed new life into me fanning my fading Embers into a brightly burning Fire.
"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you." -Walt Whitman
Laughter will cure life's ills. Have you had your laugh today?
((((HUGS))))
Hamlet, Act I, Scene 3
Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
All's Well That Ends Well, Act I, Scene 1
Happy Birthday!!
Personally, I'm in favor of birthday ice cream.
You're the bomb...
WB
James Taylor
