Me: 26 BS Him: 29 WH
I've actually been happy for the past two, I guess 3 weeks now. FWH (has recently earned that title) has been amazing. He's been a rock when I've needed him to be, understanding of my triggers and moody days, and couldn't possibly do anymore.
So why do I find myself sabotaging this happiness with my thoughts. He'll do something so loving and I think...did he do that with her? And just that quickly I get thrown off. I know that I was/am still hurt by what he has done in the past but I can actually see a change this time. I can see him working so very hard and I know that he won't hurt me like that again...i have every password, he doesn't jump when his phone rings/texts go off (he'll actually ask me to get them) so what the hell...why does my brain keep screwing me over with these awful thoughts???
Together since Dec 2005
officially done 10-30-13
Never be ashamed of a scar. It simply means you were stronger than whatever tried to hurt you.