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IslandGirl18 (original poster member #36781) posted at 2:19 AM on Wednesday, September 25th, 2013
I haven't communicated with my WH in 6 weeks. It's been hell really. I need to focus on me and healing but I miss him. I only think of the good things. I need to remember all the terrible things he said and did to me.
My state has a no fault divorce now. All a person needs to do is say the marriage hasn't worked for them in 6 months. Then we settle the finances, assets, debts. I'm not ready for that.
I still love this bastard. I keep taking my rings off and then putting them back on again.
The silence is killing me. It is giving me clarity too. When I stop by the house to get the mail, our pictures are still out.
I'm exhausted from sobbing. From living. I hate my life so much.
I remember on DD I told him I was terrified of living this life with him and living a life without him. I hate living a life without him..I miss him so much.
Today I do not want a divorce. I just want to feel better..
And I think I do as crazy as it seems. I'm not anxious anymore. Just sad. So deeply sad..
So isolated. Ignored. Unwanted.
me: BS
him: WS
D Day: July 27, 2012
Day of first suspicion: 6/7/11
DD#2: November 2, 2012
Divorced
emotionalgirl ( member #40184) posted at 3:40 AM on Wednesday, September 25th, 2013
IslandGirl. I don't have any wise words I am sorry...all I can offer is the knowledge that we members are seeing your post and a ((( hug )))
1st D day: Saturday July 20,2013
2nd D day....when the s**t really hit the fan and the truth came out.Saturday August 3,2013
3rd D day: Friday August 16, 2013...NC sent Friday Aug 30 4th D day NOV 11
Me: BS
Him: WH
Married 25 years....finally in R
StillLivin ( member #40229) posted at 4:37 AM on Wednesday, September 25th, 2013
Give Yourself More Time. I Remember 6 Weeks Felt Like An Eternity, What With The Lack Of Sleep, Anxiety, And The Rollercoaster Of Emotions. But Time And Taking The FoCus Off Of Him.and Putting It On You Does Help Gain Clarity, And Peace Of Mind.
"Bitch please a good man can't be stolen." ROFLMAO - SBB: 7/2/2014
nowiknow23 ( member #33226) posted at 4:57 AM on Wednesday, September 25th, 2013
You can call me NIK
And never grow a wishbone, daughter, where your backbone ought to be.
― Sarah McMane
HurtButHopeful? ( member #25144) posted at 6:38 AM on Wednesday, September 25th, 2013
You will get through this and be stronger than before you met him.
(((((IslandGirl18))))
Resources for R:
His Needs Her Needs, by Dr. Willard Harley
Love Busters, by Dr. Willard Harley
(for husbands) Becoming the Ultimate Husband, by Reb Bradley
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