You are important and you matter. Your feelings matter. Your voice matters. Your story matters. Your life matters. Always.
If you've ever read Tarot, you'll know that Transformation is another term for the Death card. This card does not usually mean someone (anyone) will die; it means the death of an idea, a way of life, a relationship, etc. and not always in a bad way. It just means something is going to change. Fire also stands for the Wand cards, which refer to your business life/job.
Did your father want you to go into another line of work?
Me: FBS (no longer betrayed nor a spouse)-62
D-day: 2007 (two years before finding SI)
S: 6/2010; D: 3/2011