Wow must be in the air or its simple that time , I think the blah the crazy making thoughts all of it is being enhanced by the anniversary dates as well. Our 15th wedding anniversary is coming up The down side is that Its also when the affair was first noticed and I gaslighted it instead of coming clean, either way it has not only made it that our anniversary means nothing good . It also means really the first dday anniversary.
I know we all talk about on SI what is happening to the BS at this time. I am thinking that it affects us as much, just in a different way then a BS. I know I am having a hard time holding my head up. Feeling worthy and worthy of love. From myself or others.
One thing that keeps popping in my head is a few words that a stranger said to me when I was about 23, You are to nice of a girl to walk with your head hung low. (My family was just starting to deal with all the abuse, addictions, and sexual abuse that had been happening) . Hold your head up.
Tis keeps ringingin my ears. So I am going to say it to you and me and anyone on SI
We are worth it , hold your head high. We all have a unbelievable amount of courage to stil be here, talking about ourselves, and learning and facing our own truths. Whether a WS or a BS , this takes courage to survive , find peace and love. So hold your head up. Look forward not down.
You are worth it.