I apologize all, I realize I was a little vague on the details...please ask me whatever you want, I will fill in the blanks!
Iwillnot-You are absolutely correct, HE DID THIS!!!! I have been saying these exact same words to him for weeks. Whenever he is feeling sorry for himself...I remind him, " THIS HAPPENED TO ME"!!! I don't want to be or sound like a victim, but it truly frustrates me that he pouts and cries in front of me, like I should be sorry for HIS actions, lack of judgment and disrespect!
As far as him leaving instead of me....I know him and he will drag his feet, prolong the situation in hopes that I will change my mind and I don't want to live confined to my bedroom any more. I guess what I m trying to say is, if you want something done, then you have to do it yourself. Besides, our house has become a house of cards for me....there is no longer any foundation and pretty much feels like its going to fall in around me at any moment. We ( my daughter and I) need a safe place to call home. (Please don't miss understand- I don't mean safe as in he is at all physically abusive, I mean safe as in emotionally). BTW, my daughter is 16, and thank God very much a teenage girl that has a very active social life-she pretty much ignores all the adult stuff that is going on around her.
So I joined a support group and last night was my first meeting. I have to admit, I was skeptical going in. All I pictured was a bunch of people crying for 45 minutes and solving nothing. BUT, it turns out most of these people have been attending this weekly meeting for months and have "BEEN THERE, DONE THAT" so it was very informative and refreshing to see that I will one day be where they are in this process.....a survivor!
My BIGGEST question today is: DO I WANT DETAILS? I have so many questions, but I'm afraid anymore information will push me over the edge. But then I think, all I do all day long is make up my own scenarios and that is tearing me apart anyway, so what do I have to lose??
Thank you Skan, for reminding me that we are all sinners( no matter our walk in life) and that being a Christian is an action and not just a word!
[This message edited by Sweets09 at 9:23 AM, September 27th (Friday)]