I was sent to immunologists in a bigger centre, due to 'red flags' in babies development. I was 'flushed' with anti-bioics.
As WH's whore was infected w filth.
We had scans every month to monitor brain development, organ development.
Baby is now, very healthy. But, blindness, deafness or mental disability may show up as he grows.
I am soooo f*cked up.
This has destroyed just about everything.
I suppose I will NEVER UNDERSTAND.
I thought, he loved me?
I thought he wanted this child, wanted me?
He threw us into the garbage, as soon as she lifted her skirt.
And thats what I feel like - worthless. Garbage.
And, I have this little, baby to take care of.
When all I want to do, is lay down and cry until I disappear.