Me: 26 BS Him: 29 WH
Just found myself really down today. There was nothing in particular...just sad. I think it's because "meet season" is coming up so fast...(2 months away) and FWH has to go out of town. He wants me to attend every meet with him just so he can spend the time reassuring me...sounds wonderful...except they have to go back to the meet (where he met and slept with her). the owner of the gym chooses where they compete & i know he voiced his opinion against going to that one...still it freaks me out...i've shut down and i know i have...i've told him my concerns (what if I go and she's there, what if I don't go and she's there, what if the gym owner books the same hotel that he slept with her in, so many what ifs...) i just can't seem to process it...and it frustrates me
I hate feeling so weak!
I've never let fear get in the way of anything i did and all of a sudden b/c of his infidelities fear is all I see
Together since Dec 2005
officially done 10-30-13
Never be ashamed of a scar. It simply means you were stronger than whatever tried to hurt you.