My nerves are on edge. Going to review the 180 a few times in the next 2 hours.
I was doing pretty good so far. Saturday my attorney asked me to try and negotiate with him personally. Long story won't waste time explaining. I really really didn't want to do deal with him personally. I guess I knew instintively that the past few weeks of 180 and NC would only bring out the worst in him.
And....it did. Were talking about financial stuff, when out of the blue he starts ranting and raving how I'm "taking him to the cleaners" (only asking for 5% of his base salary to help me out the next 3 years with school since I paid for his kids' college and helped him too during the M).
He then told me as lound and cruelly as he could that the only reason I'm "doing all of this stuff" to him is because he doesn't want me anymore, doesn't want to come home, and that he doesn't love me anymore. OMG this hurt so bad. And even though I logically know that he was doing it for the OW's benefit (I could hear her in the close background from time to time making snippy comments), and to hurt me because I've built walls around my heart. Oh and because he humiliated himself in front of our neighbors a week back.
But it HURT! I broke down and cried on the phone and hung up after telling him that he was the one that was evil and bitter.
So, trying to steal myself and need all the encouragement I can get before facing him for, hopefully, the last time.