"I'm still standing better than I ever did. Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid" Elton John
This chapter broke my heart to read with wh.
It reminded me of what it was like in the beginning of us.
I brought visions into my head of wh with her. Sharing those feelings with her.
It made me think, she is now the last person that he had that experience with. His last experience of that "high" will never, can never be with me.
Those special memories that we shared, talked and laughed about through the years, now will never be the same, now they hurt. We will never share those memories in the same way again.
Wh actually brought her to the places he brought me on our first dates. The places that we have reminisced about together. Now those memories are tainted.
It is a stabbing pain to realize that he shared those feelings, actually dated, he really had a girlfriend.
His last time of falling in love will never be with me.
Love her, apologize, cry for her. Make her feel like she is the most precious gift in your life.
I just know that chapter was terrible for me, trigged for days after, mind movies.
Guess my post kind of shows how much it hurt.
I would now like to be known as Can!
dday October 21,2012
dday December 20, 2013
I attempted R, he was a lie