Lots of arguing, lots of lies, thousands of text messages to OM in 4 previous months. OM is married, they had a brief A in 2005 prior to her and I. OM was married then too. But, nothing happened this time, no sexting no nothing, just friends. Bullshit!!!
We tried to R, she still treats me wonderful one minute and like shit the next. Won't go to MC or IC. Won't talk about the A. Says we are good. Nope!
Big fight after she said I was smothering her. Really lashed out at me just for sitting next to her and asking if I could see a funny picture on her Facebook page. I had seen the picture/cartoon before but I think it is funny and wanted to see it again. She said stop bothering me, you are smothering me! WTF!
I think she needs meds and some serious IC.
Lashing out and protecting her facebook page would have me wondering just what it was she didn't want me to see.
It's is essential that our eyes open but damn, it is as painful as hell.
We've all been there - small comfort to you right now when you are in the eye of the storm.
When I was where you are now and bleeding out and feeling like I would die of heartbreak someone here said these words to me which gave me some comfort:
Sometime soon this won't be something that is happening, it will be something that has happened.
I never thought the pain would end but it did. I now see his complete lack of remorse as a gift. A painful gift and one I fought so hard to not accept but a gift nonetheless.
She lives in a fantasy world.
I'm sorry, but there really is no other choice for you unless you want to be treated like second best and treated like an annoying fly for the rest of your M.
Let her go, my friend. Give her what she wants so that you can finally have some peace and begin to heal. You don't deserve this garbage and you will begin to realize this more and more as you start to detach from this madness.
How can she say she loves me then treat me bad. What kind of a person does this. I truly thought several days ago we were going in the right direction.
She apologized last night for hollering at me. I said you accused me of smothering you when all I wanted to see was the fucking cartoon. She said I only apologize for hollering, I still say you were smothering me.
I work nights and had just gotten up, hadn't seen her for 24 hrs, missed her, wanted to sit with her.
Very very sad. We have been texting back and forth this morning and she changed the smothering comment to, you can look at my Facebook account on your own. Like I said, it had seen the pic before, just thought it was funny. Didn't need a reaction like that. Seriously, what a bitch she is and pretty much always has been. Even my friends we interact with say she is mean to me.
Take a look and see if she fits within the descriptions.
Regardless, I would suggest IC for you. It takes time, work and help to untangle ourselves from these kinds of people.
She displays classic symptoms of borderline personality disorder. Fear of deep commitment, pushes me away when we get close, then begs for me not to leave. Mood swings, depression, tired all the time, and sometimes can't sleep at all.