working towards D...I can't pretend anymore
**If I edit I'm correcting a typo!**
It's hard to make a decision when you're too tired to hold on and too in love to let go. ~ unknown
[This message edited by strongerdaybyday at 10:03 AM, October 1st (Tuesday)]
I can't even look at pics from that day anymore
Our daughter is getting married in December so I'm triggering all the time.
Ugh, why are W so oblivious to things? I mean really, does he think I'm having a good day? I just told him, please don't ask if I'm having a good day anymore. Did I get out of bed today? yes, did I get dressed today? yes, Am I trying to be productive at work today? yes, Did I resist the urge to crack open a bottle of wine before noon today? yes, Am I having a good day? hell no!
Ok, I'll try to put a lid on it now! hmmm trigger much? It's been a rough few days. Sorry
MANY things have triggered memories of things that happened, but, luckily, I'm so happy to be rid of him and my life is so much better, that most of them just make me that I don't deal with any of them any more.
However, CL can still get to me. People have suggested to me at times that I go on CL for something, and I just say NO, I WON'T GO THERE!
I trigger when I put our children to bed and he's not home because I remember all the nights he could have tucked them in, but he was out with her.
My feet being cold are a trigger because I think about all the times I was alone at night when I thought he was traveling for work and would wake up cold.
[This message edited by PositiveAttitude at 5:21 PM, October 1st (Tuesday)]