It's funny how, despite the hard work, despite the time, the affair and AP partner still lurk in the background, just waiting. Waiting to take away your peace, waiting to bring back anxiety and frustration. Just when you think it's left for a while...BAM! HEY!! REMEMBER ME!! Muahahhahahahahha!!
Nothing bad happened. JNRPA is out two weeks (well, almost two weeks, she is home for two days then back on the road). I used to really struggle when she would leave for work conferences, since that is where her affair was conducted. But really, I have been feeling better about it lately.
Someone in the Menz thread said that maybe it was just a lack of giving a crap, and someone else pointed out that JRNPA had been rebuilding trust.
I guess in reality it's a mixture of the two. JNRPA has been doing a good job of rebuilding trust (with some hiccups), but also, it is a lack of giving a crap. Not to say that I don't care about it, but I know that I can't control her and if she wants to cheat, well, I'll find out eventually, and I'll be fine. So, meh, if she is the kind of person that would subject us to this again, well...I am going to be much better off without her. Now, I don't believe that this is going to happen (but I have given her my trust before--so eyes are always a little open to the possibility).
Anyway, just got a text from her that she had gotten a call from Alabama on her cell. Which would be the AP's location. She did not answer it, and she immediately let me know...so that's a good sign. I asked her what number it was, and she called me back panicking because she had touched the number to copy it, but instead her phone dialed the number, so now it looked like she had called. Poor girl.
Turns out the phone number is a telemarking number
Good job on her part letting me know. But it makes me sad to realize that the affair is still (and will for a long time be) a huge shadow that can just pop back into the midst of our lives at any time. Something as simple as a telemarketer call, can make us sick to our stomach.
How screwed up is that? Even when the sun is shining, that dark cloud can just come storming in. Anytime, anywhere. Shoot. The price that gets paid.