So first year anniversary of OW 1 tomorrow. Am feeling a little teary already. WH has been speaking to BW mentor and I'm not really sure what was said but he was a lot more loving when he came home.
He said that there will be a point when I go from surviving to thriving. He sort of said it casually (which means that it's not casual at all) that he knew that last year I started to thrive and he took that away from me.
At first I was a little stunned by it but now, a couple of days later I feel very upset.
He took away my thriving. So I guess that means that I won't take that long for me to get over this.
But I don't know he was the first person I chose to be my family. He keeps pushing me to go back to IC, but my persious one was so horrible. I don't want to go back to my pyscologist which means I won't really be able to start until January next year.
My pyscologist was awful she just made me remember all of the things I suppressed. I don't want to relive them or 'work through' them.
Just sad I guess
[This message edited by lauren123 at 8:09 PM, October 3rd (Thursday)]