Today is my birthday. I woke up feeling depressed.
My wBF is trying really hard to make it a great day. He sent me a text at midnight, and has been talking to me all morning. He's taking me out to dinner tonight, and he's been giving me hints about my present all week.
I feel like it's a losing battle though. The only thing I really want today is a time machine where I can go back to this time last year when I was still happy and day dreaming about how he was going to propose to me. I know that's impossible though.
The other thing I want is just the truth about everything. There are some things that my gut feeling still feels off about. I know he'd never confess anything on my birthday because he's trying to make it special for me. But honestly, that's what I'd really want. Just the truth, if there's anything out there that I still don't know.
I want to be in a good mood. Maybe I'll feel better once I get out of the house. My coworkers usually treat me nice on my birthday, and then I'm sure wBF will cheer me up tonight when I see him.