It doesn't say she currently has any respect for you; just doesn't want a messy divorce.
There is a way to cut thru all of the baloney your W dishes out , to find out if she is genuinely willing to do what it takes to repair the M..
Ask your W for a post nup( to protect you in the event of D...) Make this an absolute condition of R...
Her cooperation or lack of it will give you some answers...
[This message edited by doggiediva at 5:30 PM, October 3rd (Thursday)]
What an act of contempt. Its going to be very hard to put this behind you.
I'm sorry for what's happened, but I am glad to see that you are reaching out for support.
Please understand that her choice to have an affair was in no way a reflection upon you. It was a choice that she made - entirely selfish and entirely destructive. Wayward spouses will often find blame in anything and everything except themselves. Until she is willing to introspect and do the necessary work to discover why she felt her behaviour was okay and to figure out what steps she needs to take towards self improvement, your marriage will not reconcile.
The very best thing you can do right now is to take care of yourself. You have to be at your best, no matter how this goes down. Take care of yourself physically, mentally, and emotionally and do not be afraid to seek professional help.
Do not feel that you need to rush a decision immediately. You do this at your own pace, and in your own way. But you do this with your eyes open.
The best thing you can do right now is to think about what it is that you need to stay in this marriage (if in fact you wish to). At the very minimum I would suggest your WW expresses her remorse, accepts responsibility for her decisions, puts a plan in place to ensure that it never happens again, and works towards actively rebuilding the marriage. I would share this with her, and let her know that it is her decision as to how she follows up, that you cannot do her part for her, and that you will move forward with your life one way or another. If she is truly remorseful, you will know. Her actions and her choices will show her for who she truly is.
There is no magic bullet for this. This is a process and as such requires both investment of time and energy. Keep this in mind, and keep in mind to be fair to yourself. Respect who you are, and stand for what you believe in.
You're gonna be okay.
Can we actually r after she did it in my house and my bed while I was in the hospital.
Only time and hard work on both parts will tell. It is to early to know any answers to any of that.
Is it possible? Yes. Is it hard. Extremely.
However, the sex in the house is actually more common than people realize. It is a big taboo, and that is what makes it appealing if the opportunity exists, there is a big thrill by breaking the taboo. I've read this in more than one place, can't vouch for it's accuracy. However, having definitely had opportunity to have affairs, I would say that the woman's home is a fairly sure thing if the husband is not home.
"The woman's home is the first choice as a place for lovers to rendezvous. The second most frequent location for an affair is the man's home. Hotels were used as a primary meeting place by only 8% of those surveyed. Other places for an affair include the home of a friend, a boat, camper office or the park."
Some people just have to make sure they hit all the places...
My wife had sex in our home in our bed, in the garage, up against our car in a public lot, in a park, in his home in his and his wife's bed, in another home, on a public walking trail, in his workplace, and on a vacant housing lot....and then she ended it, just once in each place. Apparently, they missed out on the hotel.
There is nothing classy about any affair, or anyone who is involved in one.